Drunkenness...

I am getting really tired of all this drunkenness around our flats... It seems like pretty much every night, they get drunk in the boys' room. Now they came in here... I wish there was a space that I could get away... A quiet place... I need to explore Russell Square and see if that is ok. I am just tired of everyone getting drunk... They wake up late and are hung-over all day. I am tired of dealing with drunken people. I had to deal with them all day today with the football match.

I mean, it was a fun match, but I am tired of dealing with drunks and having to treat them like children. I had to deal with children all summer and I shouldn't have to deal with college-aged children. Obviously, it has put me out of humor...

Also, I still haven't found a place and time to have my quiet time. Ergo, I don't have one regularly. Honestly, I've only had a couple quiet times since I've been here. It's really frustrating. I don't know where I can go or when I will have a quiet place to spend my time with God.

I think right now I am tired and frustrated. :-/ I wanted to have a nice quiet evening here, but then my roommate came in here, drunk, with some othe drunk people in our program. :-/ I only have to deal with this for, oh, 3 more months...

I love London, aside from most of the people in our program drinking every night. I am very thankful that I have five or six friends in this program to hang out with that don't drink every night. I am just caught up in being irritated right now... *sigh* I can make it 3 more months. I can.

London

Here's my first post on this blog from London. It's going pretty well. I really love it here. At first I was being really really introverted, but I've kind of come out of my shell. I am working hard to not care what these people think of me. So many of them are in sororities and fraternities and they drink almost every single night. It makes me feel really out of place with them. But there are a couple of people who don't drink. The other night we watched the Count of Monte Cristo. It was a lot of fun. Also, we've gone several places together. There are about 6 or 7 of us who usually go to explore. We've gone to Westminster Abbey and to the London Eye and the British Museum. It's been a lot of fun. I really love my room and our kitchen. I love making my own meals. It's hilarious to me how amazed and impressed people are that I make my meals from scratch. I've just made a couple of simple things so far, but people are impressed. :-) Makes me feel proud that I can cook stuff from scratch even though it's really not that hard... That's about all to tell for now. I am pretty exhausted today after seeing the London Eye and taking a walking tour of Bloomsbury, our town. I usually end every day pretty exhausted from all the walking and stuff. But I still love it here.

Introverted

I am realizing how introverted I am, or maybe it's just the way I've developed... I would be as happy as a lark (yes, I did just use that phrase) to wander about London and the surrounding countryside by myself. I don't really know anyone well in the program, but unless I was with Emily, Heather, or Julie, I believe I'd be happier alone. I went to the fair alone, a couple times now. I like it because I can spend as much time as I want in wherever I want to.

One a completely different note, I realized how little time I have before leaving for London... And it scares me. I don't feel ready for leaving the country and being on my own. I'm really worried about not having enough money. I guess that's something God will be teaching me. A new level of relying on God and trusting in His sovereignty. You would think that it would be easy to trust the God of the universe. But sadly, it is easier to not trust Him and to try and do it on your own. 'Easy' in the sense that it seems to come more naturally, not in the sense that it requires less work. I'm not saying that trust doesn't take work, of course it does. But it's a different kind of work. Now I'm just rambling...I guess that's what happens at 1am... Anyway, I'm nervous about going to London on my own. Probably in the morning I'll be all excited again, but for right now I'm scared.